WorldThruMyEyes

I’m afraid. For two reasons I’m afraid. I’m afraid that when he comes back and I see him again… I’m afraid my feelings have changed. Afraid that I won’t feel as strongly as I did.

I’m afraid. For two reasons I’m afraid. I’m afraid that when he comes back and I see him again… I’m afraid my feelings have stayed and grown. Afraid that I will feel more strongly then I did before.

Two reasons. Login him less and loving him more.

It’s possible.

Trying to forget is possible.

Wanting to forget is horrible.

Using hate to forget is even worse.

Yes, it’s like that.

I try to forget everything that was said.

But what will.

I can’t forget nothing.

And how I already knew that I wouldn’t be able to,

I have hid in the routine of  the day.

Through the false smiles.

But it’s because…

The words seem to have strongly etched in my head.

They repeat every time there is silence.

Conclusion: Silence must die.

And although some part of my break,

Another is more awake than ever.

Divided between hatred and pain.

And now I don’t know what to think.

My heart hurts,

And it wants to forgive.

My head asks for revenge

For all the words,

For all the silences.

My soul id silent amid the noise.

The problem is that I can’t forgive.

Not like that.

Neither can I get revenge.

It’s not convenient.

But it all happened.

And when I need a hand on my shoulder,

I don’t let anyone help.

And when I ask for help, theirs no one…

This constant thinking. The thoughts of you before I fall asleep. The thoughts if you in my dreams. That thoughts of you when I wake. Waking up hoping your by my side. When will I get over you?

The palace that once stood in all it’s glory is becoming like ruins, abandoned. The pillars that held it, withered. The home that once felt safe, haunted. The walls that covered, chipping. The bricks that held it, crumbling. No matter how much it is remodeled, it seizes to have that glorious time without the right foundation.